This weekend I have been having difficult feelings, and they have been all over the place. I am starting to realize that I really have very few friends, which I am okay with. But I have noticed I am the only one trying to keep the friendship going. My real life friend who I have been friends with for 7 years now, barely talks to me, and almost refuses to hang out anymore. I don't even know why. And with Kimi I am tired of trying and not receiving a single thing in return, you know? I have been worrying about her as well recently because she has been tweeting such things as "I want to shoot myself." "I want to die." It is really nerve wracking. I have decided that if either of them want anything to do with me, they will contact me, if not I'm already moving on.

Also, Last night as I watching a drama an old friend I used to really like started texting me telling me he was in town and wanted to meet up. He has a a girlfriend now, and after everything that happened I was still excited to see him. However as he continued to text me the conversation became strange, and honestly he was just horny and wanted me to tell him about anything I have done etc. I told him to call his girlfriend, that I'm not like that. And he made me feel like such an idiot for even liking him at one point.

There are so many things about him that made me think about the things I have done and regret... Anyways we ended up meeting up today and his girlfriend came along, it was pretty awkward and put me in a strange mood. I really just want to forget about it.

Tonight I was going to work on some more school work but I am so exhausted I think I will watch and episode of "The Moon embracing the Sun" and sleep early. Tomorrow is a new week and I will be productive :)

This weekend I have been having difficult feelings, and they have been all over the place. I am starting to realize that I really have very few friends, which I am okay with. But I have noticed I am the only one trying to keep the friendship going. My real life friend who I have been friends with for 7 years now, barely talks to me, and almost refuses to hang out anymore. I don't even know why. And with Kimi I am tired of trying and not receiving a single thing in return, you know? I have been worrying about her as well recently because she has been tweeting such things as "I want to shoot myself." "I want to die." It is really nerve wracking. I have decided that if either of them want anything to do with me, they will contact me, if not I'm already moving on.

Also, Last night as I watching a drama an old friend I used to really like started texting me telling me he was in town and wanted to meet up. He has a a girlfriend now, and after everything that happened I was still excited to see him. However as he continued to text me the conversation became strange, and honestly he was just horny and wanted me to tell him about anything I have done etc. I told him to call his girlfriend, that I'm not like that. And he made me feel like such an idiot for even liking him at one point.

There are so many things about him that made me think about the things I have done and regret... Anyways we ended up meeting up today and his girlfriend came along, it was pretty awkward and put me in a strange mood. I really just want to forget about it.

Tonight I was going to work on some more school work but I am so exhausted I think I will watch and episode of "The Moon embracing the Sun" and sleep early. Tomorrow is a new week and I will be productive :)